kenapa lagi coba??

gitu d kalo yang namany temen ikut campur!

senin kemaren si Yuu bilang dia dah kirim naskah ke jakarta lewat BRC PIM 2, atas nama Hary...
slasa gw telpon, dibentak-bentak ama yang ngangkat (diajarin sopan santun bertelpon ga siyyyyy????)
eh, rebo-nya ryo ke kantor gw dateng ma depi, orang yang bentak2 gw.
gw ngerti siy, tujuan dia mengclearkan masalah, karna ternyata dia juga dah bete ma mahluk yag namanya depi (suka gratakan barang2nya ryo, bongkar2 tas, liat ini-itu..)
tapi ternyata... yang ada Depi malahan nyolot, ngomong ngga enak, ngehina, pake acara nunjuk2 didepan mata gw lagi! pas tangannya gw tepis, eh yang ada gw malahan di tampar!!

waaaahhh, ENOUGH!
marah, jelas- gw marah banget..
kesel, wah, ngga usah ditanya!

tapi gw pikir kalo saat itu gw meledak juga, nampar dia balik ato mencaci maki dengan kata2 yang *sensor*
apa bedanya gw ma dia??
jadi kemaren gw milih diem, dan menyelesaikan masalah ini lewat jalur resmi!!

yang bikin masalahnya jadi resmi kan depi sendiri,
- bentak2 orang ditelpon (kata orang iniaja uda salah)
- dateng ke kantor orang lain, jam kerja dong tentunya, ngomel2 pula, nampar juga....

gw siy, bilang ma manajernya, gw pengen ini diselesaikan baik2. pastinya dia lebih bijak kali dibanding karyawannya.

makanya dia ampe bisa jadi manajer juga pastinya bukan cuma karna pinter manajemen, tapi pastinya wawasannya luas, bisa nyelesain masalah, orangnya apa ya... adem aja kali ya...
ga mungkin lah kalo dia tuw orangnya gedabrak-gedubruk, hobi ngomel, kalo ngomong ngga ngenakin, trus di angkat jadi manajer.. bisa bubar tuw toko...

hari ini, si Ryo akhirnya dateng ngantein bukunya yuu
jujur aja d, gw jadi ngga enak ama yuu -nya...

y0u rAi5e m3 uP...

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

dream...

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder (wonder) of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness
Still another mile

I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

this one is cake's

At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
I kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.
And so you're back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my fucking lock.
I would have made you leave your key
if I'd have known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
I'm trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
But now I hold my head up high.

And you'll see me with somebody new.
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought you'd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

...

gundah gini ya perasaan gw, ga jelas...

belakangan ini, semakin deket rencana kawinan (Am I sure wanna marry him??) gw makin ga yakin, apa iya gw sanggup ngejalanin semuanya.

kalo ditanya sayang ato ngga, mungkin jawabannya masih sama ya, SAYANG.
tapi semuanya udah ga kaya' dulu...
belakangan ini, gw ngrasa, rasa sayang gw itu sedikit demi sedikit memudar gitu d..

gw berusaha ngeyakinin diri gw sendiri bahwa semuanya masih akan bisa sama kaya' dulu, tapi semakin keras usaha gw buat ngeyakinin diri gw, semakin susah rasanya gw buat yakin...

apalagi kalo lagi ribut2 dan dia selalu nyalahin gw, Ya Allah..... salah Indah dimana lagi??
rasanya gw pengen nangis, dan selalu kejadian gw nangis, rasanya sediiiiiih banget.... padahal akhirnya gw bingung kenapa juga gw mesti nangis??

kalo dia bilang gw selalu ngungkit2 kesalahannya, beberapa waktu yang lalu iya, tapi belakangan ini, gw juga banyak belajar buat ga bikin dia ngerasa lebih ga enak.
kalo waktu pertama dia balik ma gw setelah dicampakkan sama penyiar sadis itu, dia bilang "gw ga pantes buat lo, ternyata apa yang dah gw lakuin ke elo, dilakuin sama si bangsat itu ke gw" walaw gw tau itu klise gw bilang "ga papa"

kejadian itu emang jadi satu pukulan hebat buat gw, dan sampe sekarang gw masih nanya "kok ada ya perempuan yang rela jual dirinya cuma buat duit yang ga seberapa??"

tapi semakin kesini bukan rasa ga pantes yang dia bilang, tapi dia selalu menempatkan gw diposisi yang paling ga enak!
dia sering banget bilang "kan mao lo balik ma gw, jadi kalo sekarang gw semao gw, itu derita lo, njing!!!!"

dia kaya'nya yakn banget kalo dia emang dah bener2 ga butuh gw, dan semua orang liatnya gw yang ngemis2 ga bisa hidup kalo ga ma dia...
dulu, gw bisa tau, kalo dia marah segitu gedenya berarti dia lagi tertekan, dan biasanya dia lari ke gw..
tapi kok sekarang gw kaya' jadi orang yang justru bikin dia tertekan banget ya??
apa bener dia dah ga butuh gw sama sekali? bener dia dah beneran ga sayang??

I will survive

At first I was afraid, I was petrified Kept thinkin I could never live without you by my side Then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong And I grew strong And I learned how to get along And so you’re back from outer space I just walked in to find you here, with that sad look upon your face I should have changed that stupid lock I should have made you leave your key If I had known for just one second you’d be back to bother me Go on now, go walk out the door Just turn around now coz you’re not welcome anymore Weren’t you the one who tried to break me with goodbye? Did you think Id crumble? Did you think Id lay down and die? Oh no not I, I will survive For as long as I know how to love, I know Ill stay alive I’ve got all my life to live And I’ve got all my love to give Ill survive I will survive Hey hey (I, I will survive) Hey hey (I, I will survive) Every day (I, I will survive) Oh yeah It took all the strength I had not to fall apart Just trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart And I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself I used to cry, but now I hold my head up high And you see me, somebody new I’m not that chained up little person still in love with you And so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free But now I’m savin all my lovin for someone whos lovin me Go on now, go walk out the door Just turn around now You’re not welcome anymore Weren’t you the one who tried to break me with goodbye? Did you think Id crumble? Did you think Id lay down and die? Oh no not I, I will survive Oh as long as I know how to love, I know Ill stay alive I’ve got all my life to live And I’ve got all my love to give Ill survive I will survive Hey hey Go now, go walk out the door Just turn around now coz you’re not welcome anymore Weren’t you the one who tried to break me with goodbye? Did you think Id crumble? Did you think Id lay down and die? Oh no not I, I will survive Oh as long as I know how to love, I know Ill stay alive I’ve got all my life to live And I’ve got all my love to give Ill survive I will survive I will survive (I, I will survive) Hey (I, I will survive) Every day (I, I will survive) Yeah yeah (I, I will survive) Oh (I, I will survive) I will survive (I, I will survive) (I, I will survive) I’ve got all my love to give (I, I will survive) I’ve got all my life to live (I, I will survive) My loving is not in vain, oh no (I, I will survive) I will survive (I, I will survive) I will survive (I, I will survive) Hey (repeat to end)

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blog baru niy, cuma buat gw aja... buat cerita sendiri aja